My dreams, my memories

My dreams, my memories

I remember when I was little I was obsessed with Barbie and basically anything to do with ballet. I loved when Barbie used to 'transform' at the end of her movies to a beautiful Princess and she was awesome at Ballet and that's when I fell in love with Ballerinas. 

The weird thing is, I never took up my dream to become a ballet dancer. I simply kept that dream in my head and in movies, TV shows e.g. When I was around 9 I had a fantasy world in my head where I was a beautiful ballerina with white stockings, pointe shoes and a beautiful pink ballet dress. Thinking back, I really do wish I achieved that dream, I would of loved it even as a hobby but I never really believed in myself. Maybe it is what all little girls think when they are young? All I know is them dreams are well and truly over and I'm now 16 (almost 17 in two weeks) and I would love to be an RSPCA Volunteer and work with the adorable animals. I never knew the tiger was endangered of becoming instinct! That is so sad. :( 

I recently saw on my local news that a 91 year old Victorian women chained herself to a tree to protect naturalfrom being cut down by people wanting to build roads. I am truly amazed that this women has courage to do this and I think she has every right to stand up for what she believes in and quiet frankly I agree with her! Cutting down trees is basically cutting down all the animals homes, food source and will endanger more species. Imagine in 100 years time if we would tell our grandkids ''Yep back in my day we use to see kangaroos in the bush! ahh the good old days.'' Imagine how sad that would be? We need to stand up for our rights and what we believe in. Sadly despite this womens protest they actually cut down 1,000 trees in Victoria an hour after she unchained herself. Please sign the petition on this website http://www.thepetitionsite.com/environment-and-wildlife/national-parks-and-forests/

I want help - I need someone

I want help - I need someone

Some people think I don't want to get better but that's not true. I really do want to get better but I am scared of the anxiety and I'm scared of going outside. I thought a good start would be to go to a quiet library and learn to get rid of my separation anxiety and agoraphobia (nice and quiet library) but I basically had to beg my mum to go and I'm so scared she will forget. The problem is everytime I have an idea to get better, it's a major struggle I wish my family was more on-board otherwise I'll be stuck forever. I feel like such a loser. 

I'm even scared to tell them my ideas. I also want to go to Artspace which is a cool program to learn art but I don't see that happening either. I self-harmed a few days ago, couldn't help it and it did feel really good. At least when I self-harm I see myself here for a reason because right now, I feel like I'm a waste of space and do not belong here. 

                                                             *****

If I do manage to get to the library I will get some chapter books and some education books on different subjects like weather and maybe animals or some history. I'm really interested in womens' rights. I will feel bad dragging my mum to the library because she hates libraries and books, and I know this will make her angry. 

I've had this fake 'fantasy' family in my head for around 2 years and I wish they were real because they are so good to me and I feel very much loved. In my fantasy family, I have no anxiety disorder either. Ugh why can't dreams come true? 

 

 

I'm back and I'm back for good!

I haven't wrote since March which seems like forever but I have a good explanation. I honestly forgot I even had this blog and so much has happened since then that I just lost track of time so I never had time to write or even visit the blog. So I'll fill you in on the details. I'm still being home-schooled at the moment and I'm 16 now (gosh I wish I didn't have to remind myself of that fact lol), and one enormous detail... a LOAD of new music has being released since then! And yes I'm talking about Fifth Harmony's new song 'Sledgehammer' and their other single 'Bo$$' and Taylor Swifts '1989' album and who can't forget Ariana Grandes new album 'My Everything' which is totally awesome.   

I've finally found out how to add a working music player to my blog which plays automatically so I'm pretty happy about that. I'll be updating the music player every week with my top 3 favorite songs, and I'll also list them at the end of each blogpost just in case you want to download it or something. 

This blogpost will be short as I have to organise the future of my blog so I'll be back as soon as possible! xoxo 

Songs 

Scarlet - Brooke Fraser
Line Of Fires - The Veronicas
Break The Rules - Charli XCX (Tiesto Remix)

Getting organised for School!

Getting organised for School!

I'm not the smartest girl so this year is all about learning and paying attention and studying at least 3 nights a week. I've being home-schooled since the start of 2012 because of my severe anxiety disorder, it's not traditional homeschooling, I get daily work sent to me. So far, I'm only doing three subjects 'Maths, History, Science' but English will be added into my daily schedule too. At the moment, I'm setting up my little study space with books and my School work which I place in boxes and I'll be printing off different types of charts to help me learn. I'm excited to finally be organized and prepared. I'll also be printing off a work schedule and of course decorating it because I hate boring things. 

Secret Diary of an average Teenager

Secret Diary of an average Teenager

Well I know I said that this was going to be a music blog, but then I realised that it would be boring to talk just about music and I would run out of topics pretty fast so I have decided to transform my blog into an online journal. I will be posting my opinions about things and of course I will still be uploading about music but just not as much. I'll try my best to write occasionally but I do get busy doing other things like my schooling plus I'll be making up my own daily schedule so my day plans out better. Well my first post is about my city and how it has a bad reputation. Even though the city does have a bad part (I've seen it first-hand), it also has hidden beauty that not many people can see. 

Wollongong itself is a beautiful sea-side city located about an hour away south of Sydney. Many people see Wollongong as an 'eye-sore', and yes, I was one of those people but I realised Wollongong will always be my home, I grew up in the Wollongong region and I still live in the Wollongong region. Part of the problem is our council who keep delaying things so Wollongong never has anything new happening. A couple of years ago, I saw an article in the newspaper about how Wollongong would of looked like by now if the council let the developments happen and I tell you, Wollongong would of looked like a billion dollar city. Along with that problem, you also have to pay for parking at our beautiful city! Everyone just heads further down south to Shellharbour which has a bigger mall and free parking. 

I do not live in the city but in a suburb of Wollongong. I like the suburb I live in because it's peaceful and no trouble-makers roaming the streets, although we get the occasional idiot who thinks is it ok to set a car on fire and leave it in the middle of the road (this was trend and even happened to our own car!). The worst car fire I have seen was one just about two houses down, we could hear big bangs it happened at around 3am and yes there was a car speeding around like a maniac just 2 - 3 minutes before so it's obvious who did it. 

Well enough of the negativity. I love our backyard because We seem to be attracting a lot of pretty birds at our house lately. I love the Rainbow Lorikeets the best. We have no idea what the other big bird is though, we think it's maybe an owl of some sort. The Lorikeets make a huge mess when they get the seeds out of these plants and then drop the sticks all over the concrete below but it's worth the mess to see these beautiful birds. I hope you enjoyed this blog post and I promise to write something more interesting in the coming week or so. 

Not a obsessed murderer, I'm an obessed music fan

Not a obsessed murderer, I'm an obessed music fan

Well I have decided to create this music blog.. I love music which inspired me but the person who inspired me most is my older sister Melissa who told me she herself made her own music blog on this very same blogging website. I consider myself music obsessed, which is where the name of my music blog came from. I will be doing song reviews, tour dates and track-listing, reviews for new albums (and old ones), plus a track by track review. I'll also be doing a 80s, 90s and early 00s flashbacks which is where I post a review about my favourite song from the past every 

friday night. I'm so excited guys!

I'll first introduce you to myself so you guys know who I am. Well, my name is Tiara and I'm 15 years old (27/03/98). I was born in Australia and I am still located in Australia, I live in New South Wales about an hour south from Sydney. I really love animals, music, reading and dancing like a maniac. My favourite music artists would have to be Demi Lovato, Eminem, Secondhand Serenade, Ellie Goulding, Katy B, Little Mix and many more artists but it will take years to list them. The girls in that picture ^ are Little Mix. I really like them because their songs have a 90s feel but they still manage to keep them modern and fresh as well. I really love their clothing style aswell so I'll be posting pictures of that too. 

Well lets start with my first post about music. I was messing around with my iPod Touch and decided to listen to some music, but as I looked down at my music tubs I notcied a tab saying ''Radio'. I thought too myself that maybe it was there all along but I just haven't notcied it but to my surprise it only just came out in Australia and America a few days ago. I love this feature because you can stream albums that have just being released, and so much more. Just like spotify, there is a number of different ''stations'' you can listen too which continuously play songs so be sure to check it out because it could be a useful feature for people who are wanting to discover new music and artists. 

Well this is all I'm going to write for tonight. 
I'll be also writing my favourite song line at the end of each post. Most of the songs I listen too, I relate too. 

Song lyric ''I push all my problems to the back of my brain
A darkness deep inside where I just can't find my way'' Katy b